Yeah, I kinda vanished for another week. Sorry about that. Things took a little bit of an unexpected turn last week, and I ended up having a bit of a mini breakdown. After that, I just couldn't bring myself to get much work done. I fell into a little bit of a depression episode which sucked, but at least I'm able to handle them a little bit better now. But then this week, I've been on a huge high for most of it, so everything has been very up and down, going from one extreme to another. I had very little time to just stop and catch my breath.
So what was supposed to be a self-care week was a bit of a fail. I've been exhausted for most of it, so I didn't have any energy to do many of my other hobbies that I enjoy. I did get plenty of inspiration for writing though, it was just a shame that I couldn't get motivated to actually do any writing. Famous last words, but here's hoping that I can finally get back on track this coming week.
Everything had been fine last week up until Friday night. I had managed to actually update Madness Within on time, so if you haven't read the latest chapter, you can do so by clicking here. I was feeling pretty great until I received some news. The news wasn't surprising, but still, it hit hard. It's a bit too personal for me to go into here, but in a nutshell, I found something out about something that had happened to me when I was a kid, and it just devastated me and brought it all back.
As a result, I now have more intense feelings of mistrust towards authority figures than I did before. I was a blubbering mess for most of the night, and it took me a while to finally calm down and process all of the information. I felt like a kid again and like I was back in those moments, re-living everything once again.
The whole thing left me exhausted, so I decided it was probably a good idea to have a bit of a self-care week to help me recover and get over things. Work wasn't helping though, as I have had to deal with a fair few weirdos and mean old ladies. That creepy guy that was flirting with me a few weeks ago came in and asked me if we sold viagra (we did not), and he was being really creepy with me the whole time. If that guy turns out to be a serial killer, I really wouldn't be surprised.
Then I seemed to be constantly having baby boomers throwing temper tantrums because things didn't go their way. I tell ya, baby boomers are definitely the most rude and insufferable generation. Of course this is a generalisation, as not all of them are like that, but they're definitely the people that I have the most problems with at work. I was literally on the verge of pouring rose water all over one lady. She was acting like the fact she couldn't smell it was the end of the world and that it was somehow my fault. Get that cactus out of your ass lady and grow up.
Oh yeah, and some guy came in and asked me if I could help him sell some weed before then asking me for a job. Like...? I have nothing against weed, and I agree that it should be legalised, but admitting to illegal activity before asking for a job probably isn't the best way to go about things. It was a very hilarious 'wtf' moment.
There was another funny incident I really want to talk about, but that would involve revealing someone's personal information, which I don't want to do. Basically a guy had a very...interesting...email address. And he didn't seem ashamed of it at all, he was just totally cool with shouting it out with other customers around. It was creepy and weird, but also pretty hilarious.
I also had a few annoying shop-lifters this week. However, one incident was actually quite hilarious. These two teenage girls were clearly up to no good, so I was keeping an eye on them. Then one of them came up to me and was clearly trying to distract me and get me to leave my post. She started asking me for health advice that didn't make any sense. Half of the medicine she was asking for I couldn't sell her because she was clearly under 18, and she also asked if we sold vitamins. I basically just gestured around the whole shop. If you live in the UK, you might be starting to get an idea as to where I work. It's basically kinda like a pharmacy, only it's non-prescription medication. But whatever big thing they were hoping to steal, I didn't give them the chance. But they did steal a protein bar, but joke's on them, those bars contain your recommended daily calorie intake. Keep stealing those and you're gonna pile on the pounds, you stupid brat. She didn't seem all too bright, so she probably just thought it was a regular chocolate bar. It gave me a good laugh.
I did have a few extra days off this week, which was nice, but I didn't really get much work or self-care done. At best, I maybe just played video games and hung out with my boyfriend. At least it was some sort of rest though. I didn't really get to do any meditation, mindfulness or reading like I should have technically been doing. Getting into the habit of doing those things is proving to be pretty hard.
But then the real high came when I found out my dad was moving away. Hurray! Yeah, he ran away with another woman a few years ago before then moving just a single street away from us. Yeah. So he was constantly driving past and they would both harass me and my family and just ugh. They're scum, and I would gladly help them pack if it makes them go away any faster. So that was a huge boost to my mental health, knowing that soon I won't have to feel paranoid every time I leave the house. I mean really, who does that? Who ditches their family for a new one, and then move just a few houses away when everything is still raw? And that's barely scratching the surface of why my dad (or most of my family for that matter) are the scummiest people alive. Sorry to rant, but...I'm just so happy that him and my wicked step-mother are moving away! YIPPEE!
However, I did finally manage to catch up with LycoRogue's latest works, mainly I Don't Care as well as Breaking Monotony. They're awesome Miraculous fics, and I definitely recommend that you check them out. She always manages to keep everyone so in character and it always feels like I'm reading an actual episode. I've also started reading Maribug Split by PensMight. She messaged me a few weeks ago asking for my opinion on her work, so I thought that I would finally start reading it now that I had the time. The premise is definitely interesting and is a very unique idea. I can't wait to get more into it, and if you too are after something a little different, then I definitely recommend checking it out.
I so need to catch up on my fanfiction reading. I can't remember the last time I actually browsed through and read something that wasn't work written by a friend, or reading someone's work because they asked for my feedback on it. I really need to just chill one day and browse through to see what there is, as a lot of my favourite fics have now been completed or haven't been updated in forever. So I need something new. If you guys have any suggestions, please feel free to let me know.
Can anyone else believe the amount of episodes that have been released lately? I can't keep up with them all...quite literally. I have a list of episodes to review as long as my arm. But hey, at least it will keep me busy and give me plenty of content for Miraculous Monday. I'm now trying to write as many of them in advance as possible so they're all ready to be released every Monday. The Reflekdoll review will be posted onto my blog tomorrow for definite, so keep an eye out for that.
I'm really sorry that Chat Vert keeps getting delayed again, but I am hoping to get that story updated on Tuesday, and I will be trying to make it one of my top priorities. I'm hoping to stick to updating Madness Within every Friday, but Fridays aren't a definite, rather a little goal I set for myself. I'm going to try and get as much writing work done in advance as possible so I'm not rushing around at the last minute, because that's when my motivation disappears. I need to treat writing like a hobby again rather than a job, as that's when I start to get lazy. Also, I haven't forgotten about my AO3 account, I promise. I will try and get back to a consistant update schedule for my stories on there, I just need to pick a day for each one and try to stick to it.
But anyway, that's kinda all I really have to talk about today. I'm feeling super tired right now for some reason and can't concentrate properly, so I'm gonna get some rest, ready for all the work that I'm hoping to get done this coming week. I hope that you've all been doing okay, and fingers crossed that I get all of the work that I have planned for this week completed.
So what was supposed to be a self-care week was a bit of a fail. I've been exhausted for most of it, so I didn't have any energy to do many of my other hobbies that I enjoy. I did get plenty of inspiration for writing though, it was just a shame that I couldn't get motivated to actually do any writing. Famous last words, but here's hoping that I can finally get back on track this coming week.
Everything had been fine last week up until Friday night. I had managed to actually update Madness Within on time, so if you haven't read the latest chapter, you can do so by clicking here. I was feeling pretty great until I received some news. The news wasn't surprising, but still, it hit hard. It's a bit too personal for me to go into here, but in a nutshell, I found something out about something that had happened to me when I was a kid, and it just devastated me and brought it all back.
As a result, I now have more intense feelings of mistrust towards authority figures than I did before. I was a blubbering mess for most of the night, and it took me a while to finally calm down and process all of the information. I felt like a kid again and like I was back in those moments, re-living everything once again.
The whole thing left me exhausted, so I decided it was probably a good idea to have a bit of a self-care week to help me recover and get over things. Work wasn't helping though, as I have had to deal with a fair few weirdos and mean old ladies. That creepy guy that was flirting with me a few weeks ago came in and asked me if we sold viagra (we did not), and he was being really creepy with me the whole time. If that guy turns out to be a serial killer, I really wouldn't be surprised.
Then I seemed to be constantly having baby boomers throwing temper tantrums because things didn't go their way. I tell ya, baby boomers are definitely the most rude and insufferable generation. Of course this is a generalisation, as not all of them are like that, but they're definitely the people that I have the most problems with at work. I was literally on the verge of pouring rose water all over one lady. She was acting like the fact she couldn't smell it was the end of the world and that it was somehow my fault. Get that cactus out of your ass lady and grow up.
Oh yeah, and some guy came in and asked me if I could help him sell some weed before then asking me for a job. Like...? I have nothing against weed, and I agree that it should be legalised, but admitting to illegal activity before asking for a job probably isn't the best way to go about things. It was a very hilarious 'wtf' moment.
There was another funny incident I really want to talk about, but that would involve revealing someone's personal information, which I don't want to do. Basically a guy had a very...interesting...email address. And he didn't seem ashamed of it at all, he was just totally cool with shouting it out with other customers around. It was creepy and weird, but also pretty hilarious.
I also had a few annoying shop-lifters this week. However, one incident was actually quite hilarious. These two teenage girls were clearly up to no good, so I was keeping an eye on them. Then one of them came up to me and was clearly trying to distract me and get me to leave my post. She started asking me for health advice that didn't make any sense. Half of the medicine she was asking for I couldn't sell her because she was clearly under 18, and she also asked if we sold vitamins. I basically just gestured around the whole shop. If you live in the UK, you might be starting to get an idea as to where I work. It's basically kinda like a pharmacy, only it's non-prescription medication. But whatever big thing they were hoping to steal, I didn't give them the chance. But they did steal a protein bar, but joke's on them, those bars contain your recommended daily calorie intake. Keep stealing those and you're gonna pile on the pounds, you stupid brat. She didn't seem all too bright, so she probably just thought it was a regular chocolate bar. It gave me a good laugh.
I did have a few extra days off this week, which was nice, but I didn't really get much work or self-care done. At best, I maybe just played video games and hung out with my boyfriend. At least it was some sort of rest though. I didn't really get to do any meditation, mindfulness or reading like I should have technically been doing. Getting into the habit of doing those things is proving to be pretty hard.
But then the real high came when I found out my dad was moving away. Hurray! Yeah, he ran away with another woman a few years ago before then moving just a single street away from us. Yeah. So he was constantly driving past and they would both harass me and my family and just ugh. They're scum, and I would gladly help them pack if it makes them go away any faster. So that was a huge boost to my mental health, knowing that soon I won't have to feel paranoid every time I leave the house. I mean really, who does that? Who ditches their family for a new one, and then move just a few houses away when everything is still raw? And that's barely scratching the surface of why my dad (or most of my family for that matter) are the scummiest people alive. Sorry to rant, but...I'm just so happy that him and my wicked step-mother are moving away! YIPPEE!
However, I did finally manage to catch up with LycoRogue's latest works, mainly I Don't Care as well as Breaking Monotony. They're awesome Miraculous fics, and I definitely recommend that you check them out. She always manages to keep everyone so in character and it always feels like I'm reading an actual episode. I've also started reading Maribug Split by PensMight. She messaged me a few weeks ago asking for my opinion on her work, so I thought that I would finally start reading it now that I had the time. The premise is definitely interesting and is a very unique idea. I can't wait to get more into it, and if you too are after something a little different, then I definitely recommend checking it out.
I so need to catch up on my fanfiction reading. I can't remember the last time I actually browsed through and read something that wasn't work written by a friend, or reading someone's work because they asked for my feedback on it. I really need to just chill one day and browse through to see what there is, as a lot of my favourite fics have now been completed or haven't been updated in forever. So I need something new. If you guys have any suggestions, please feel free to let me know.
Can anyone else believe the amount of episodes that have been released lately? I can't keep up with them all...quite literally. I have a list of episodes to review as long as my arm. But hey, at least it will keep me busy and give me plenty of content for Miraculous Monday. I'm now trying to write as many of them in advance as possible so they're all ready to be released every Monday. The Reflekdoll review will be posted onto my blog tomorrow for definite, so keep an eye out for that.
I'm really sorry that Chat Vert keeps getting delayed again, but I am hoping to get that story updated on Tuesday, and I will be trying to make it one of my top priorities. I'm hoping to stick to updating Madness Within every Friday, but Fridays aren't a definite, rather a little goal I set for myself. I'm going to try and get as much writing work done in advance as possible so I'm not rushing around at the last minute, because that's when my motivation disappears. I need to treat writing like a hobby again rather than a job, as that's when I start to get lazy. Also, I haven't forgotten about my AO3 account, I promise. I will try and get back to a consistant update schedule for my stories on there, I just need to pick a day for each one and try to stick to it.
But anyway, that's kinda all I really have to talk about today. I'm feeling super tired right now for some reason and can't concentrate properly, so I'm gonna get some rest, ready for all the work that I'm hoping to get done this coming week. I hope that you've all been doing okay, and fingers crossed that I get all of the work that I have planned for this week completed.
OK, so a bit to unpack. :D
ReplyDelete1. Goodness! I thought I had to deal with some wack-a-doodles when I used to work at a grocery store. At least you're finding the humor in it.
2. I'm sorry you have such a strained relationship with most of your family, and your father does sound like such a jerk! I'm happy that you feel some mental stress relief from his moving. May it keep trending towards the positive for you.
3. I'm so sorry that you had to relive trauma like that. :( Feel free to message me on FB if you want to talk/vent about it. If you feel sufficiently over everything, then good for you. :) <3
4. As always, you're a sweetie for promoting my work. Thank you, and I'm glad you enjoy them that much.
5. I'll have to check out that story suggestion. It does have an interesting concept.
6. As for my own recommendations, I have a couple by MidnightStarlightWrites, as well as EdenDaphne, and a random assortment of one-shots. I'll have to message you about them to see if any are new for you. Also, I follow an AO3feed blog on Tumblr, I can send you the account if you'd like.
I hope the good days continue to be more frequent for you, but self-care truly is important, to try not to burn yourself out. :) <3 Take care.
Yeah, I live in a very weird town. I work in a shop where you'd think you wouldn't get weirdos, but we do.
DeleteUgh, tell me about it. I hope so too, thank you!
Thank you, that really means a lot to me. I'm slowly moving forward from it as much as I can. I think this is something I'm probably never going to get full closure on, so I guess I'm just gonna have to learn to accept that.
Awww, you're welcome!
Also, thank you so much for the suggestions! I'll definitely have to go and check those stories and writers out. I think I've seen that blog before, so I think I should be able to find it pretty easy, but I'll get the link off you if I get stuck.
Thank you! ^_^